Ainulindale

Entwined in barren unease
I stumbled upon your grace
Inside the world of pain
You kept me from going insane

Like a drop of water in a desert
A melody in a soundless space
Like a ray of light in a dark place
Your eyes, your smile, your face

Into black eyes I starred
Inside my soul felt spared
Into them I was drawn
My sweet, sweet fawn

I cried today
Alone in my room
As sadness comfort me
"My love, it's okay"

I cried today
For times ahead
And though unsure
They'll have their say

I cried today
For all the times
I'll brake your heart
And look away

I cried today
For all the times
You'll hurt me back
We'll never stay

I cried today
For losing your love
And I know I will
I always stray

I cried today
For making you leave me
I cried today
For being all alone

I cried today
Because of the unknown

Više ne očekujte pjesme...ili ih očekujte jako rijetko... :(

Love is the only thing worth dying for
That's what I have found
Exchange the lies with the truth
Not the other way around

But this is not the way of the world
It's not what I hear in your voice
So before my gift turns to my curse
I have to face that I have no choice

No more idealistic thoughts of the world
No more daydreams of glorious deeds
No more cravings for things beyond reach
I reluctantly acknowledge that this I need

It was the worst feeling in the world
To realize that I was all alone
The thing that frightened me the most
Is knowing your heart's of stone

I decide to give up my world
No more fantasies of any kind
This is what has to be done
If I am to save what's left of my mind

She was the spark in my eye
She was the reason I cry
But after a short while
She become the reason I smile

At times when I felt I was dead
Lying alone in my bed
My angel from heaven would arrive
Again to make me feel alive

It was when she gave me a kiss
That I have realized this
She is what I have craved
And that's when I was saved

She is my only desire
She is the one I admire
She is beautiful indeed
She is all that I need

I've learnt the sound of love from you
It's the drum-like beating inside your chest
The silent word that makes me smile
The gentle sigh that silences the rest

You showed me the touch of love
It's your tender hand caressing my face
Your warmest cheek right next to mine
It's the tingling sensation in your embrace

You showed me how much you love me
When you said that for me you'd die
Every time you cleansed my doubts
And every time that I made you cry

I pledge my endless love to you
And all I want is for you to know
That wherever life may take you
That's where I will choose to go

What kind of a world is this
When all you do is lie
When ignorance is bliss
When children wanna die

What kind of a world you've made
When there's so much hate
When your love can fade
When you doom your fate

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I loathe what you've become
And I hate all you do
And I feel ashamed
Because I'm one of you

What haunts your lonely mind
When you sleep at night
When darkness makes you blind
When there is no light

What part of you is saved
When another soul dies
Alone in the dark, enslaved
With silence drowned in cries

The closest thing

When they look into your eyes
Angel's soul begins to sing
Hopelessly they hide their cries
To love you are the closest thing

Can you hear my silent sighs
Whenever my heart starts to sting
I feel inside me something dies
To death you are the closest thing

I'll get over all your lies
And I'll ignore this pain you bring
Pushing down all of my cries
To heaven you're the closest thing


The saddest day

I looked into your eyes and cried
Because I never knew such love
I looked into your eyes and wept
Because there is no God above

I looked into your eyes and cried
I fear the day when it's too late
I looked into your eyes and wept
Because we cannot make our fate

I looked into your eyes and cried
Confused you asked me why
It's 'cause I foresaw the day
When I will have to say goodbye

I don't care what happens to the world
Whatever does it serves them right
Among them demons I saw an angel
Her gracious beauty bathes in light

I never knew it would hurt so much
To lose that light among the dark
From that day I've known my purpose
On my heart it left your mark

Among these demons I remain
But my life is not the same
If love could be put to words
It would surely spell out her name

I've been searching for so long
To find that light before it dies
It's up to me to shield it now
For I have found it in your eyes

Like the wind they come
Blowing away
In my head like a drum
Every day

Memories have layed a path
For me to take
Nothing can repel their wrath
My old mistake

Bridge
And I cannot fight, I cannot run
I'm forced to kneel alone and endure
And I'm losing grip, reality fades
Flooding tears seem to be the cure

Chorus
Can you find it in you to take a peak inside
Can I challenge you or dare
You'll find that my love still persists
You'll find my love for you's still there

Can pain be healed with love
Yes I do believe so
But when love fades again
Pain is there, I know

Wishfull thoughts of peace
Stray far from real
I fear what it will show
What will it reveal

Bridge
Chorus

Tomorrow's far
Time stalls
Unwilling to see me end

Overseen crack
Light crawls
Thinking there's hope for me yet

But I've seen enough
I've said my goodbyes to those that care
I think I'm ready now
And nothing can stop me

Chorus
I'm ready to go
I can almost see my spirit soar away
Just so you know
None of you could have persuaded me to stay

So not worthy
Of life
Or was it the other way around

Reflected light
Blade of a knife
Soon to be buried within me

And I've seen enough
No goodbyes 'cause no one cares
And so I'm ready now
So where is she to stop me

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I'm ready to go
Of all the days I chose today
Just so you know
She could have persuaded me to stay

She wasn't there in life
She was never there
She won't be there in death
So I don't really care

Wide open eyes I stare
And I can't see a thing
In the dark I feel so bare
Afraid of what it will bring

And it's been so long
I'm not sure I want it anymore
I am not that strong
And yet I still walk through that door

Chorus
And I'm holding you in my arms
Oh how I wish to die in this moment
A rare moment of happiness in my life
I won't let it end
I can't bare another torment

Wide open eyes I stare
I fall down on my knees
My heart, I hear it tare
Stop, just stop this, please

And it's been so long
Is love what it used to be before
And it feels so wrong
Come here, love, come give me more

Chorus2
And I'm holding you in my arms
Oh how I wish to die in this moment
A rare moment of happiness in my life
I won't let it end
I can't bare another torment

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People free, people slaved
You see them passing everyday
People everywhere
People everywhere

Hear them together as they sing
All big-fish wannabes
All saying
The same thing

Chorus
Just bow
To me
Yeah bow
To me

Disappear without a trace
Hiding inside their rooms
Saving face
Saving face

Hear them together as they cry
Couldn't handle the truth
Living a lie
Living a lie

Chorus2
Just lie
To me
Yeah lie
To me

Wow, they are so cool
Everyone look at me
I'm a fool
I'm a fool

But this is not my way
In a world out of its mind
In my head
I will stay

Chorus3
Now bow
To me
Yeah bow
To me

That's what everyone's talking about
Can't you see there's nothing left
You know we're all drowning in
Ego effect
Ego effect

You're close within my heart
Yet you're so far away
But I know we will meet
Hear me when I say

You are so beyond words
You are beyond fate
I promise I will come
When the hour is late

A star will guide my way
A star that's in your name
We are meant to be
My love, we are the same

So, I've been reading this book called The power of your subconsciousness by Joseph Murphy. I urge everyone to read that book. I will try to describe what the book is about. Basically it's a self-help book, but when I started reading it I had no intention of using it to aid myself, I just wanted to find out how it's done.
So I've described our subconsciousness in the posts before, and I hope you remembered it, cause now I'll talk about how to use the power you have to mend almost anything.
I wanna start with something that caught most of my attention. It's the way that subconsciousness can be directly linked to our belief in one God. In the book they don't say it directly, I think that's because the author didn't want any trouble with the believers, but I don't care, I'll be as direct as possible. So, basically, what the author says is - there is no God as such, or as people perceive Him. God is actually our subconsciousness. When we pray, we don't pray to God, we pray to ourself. I'll explain this.
Ever heard of miraculous things like - people got better, or got cured from incurable diseases by true belief in "God". Yeah, well...they did get better thanks to their belief, but it was not God that cured them. They cured themselves. Subconsciousness created all of your body parts, therefore, it has the capability to cure them. If you believe it can. If you don't believe it, then it won't work. As I said, your subconsciousness accepts what it receives. If someone's suffering from an incurable disease, their thoughts will go in that direction, and they're gonna keep on thinking something like - "My life is over, I'll never get better, I'm incurable..." ... Hehe, and then when they repeat that to themselves their subconsciousness says - "Ok...if you want it that way." That's because your subconsciousness can't tell right from wrong, like I said before. It just accepts what you tell it. If that person up there said - "No...this disease is not incurable...I WILL get better...my subconsciousness will cure me..." and believed in it, a "miracle" would happen again. In that case your subconsciousness would say - "Ok, I'll do it". However, this kind of auto-suggestion (or a prayer), as I said before, needs to reach your subconsciousness, therefore, you need to be in a highly suggestible or hypnotic state.
I started thinking then how priests are actually our guides to our subconsciousness and a church is a place where we fall into light trance and are more suggestible, because we believe that God will help us, when in fact, our subconsciousness will.
I once believed, and still do, that telepathy and telekinesis are possible. Let's take telekinesis for example. Sometimes when I lay in my bed I stare at the objects on my night cupboard that's next to the bed. I pick an object and think of moving it. (don't get too excited, nothing ever moves...yet) After a while when I realized that it won't move I started thinking about what would it take to make it move. I guess that it's pure belief and some practice. Speaking of practice - how many times have you actually thought of moving something with your mind? Never...I thought so...a brain is a muscle too, we need to exercise it. Back to belief. I believe that if I believe enough in it, that I could do it. There's the problem...I believe that if I believe...Imagine yourself in my position - how would you react if the item you're looking at does move? You'd be surprised, as would I, and that's the problem. We need to get ourself to the point where we wouldn't feel any surprise if the item moved. Thought does penetrate mater. Up until recently I didn't know that someone thought of this before I did, but there was a guy that said something like this.
Lets get back to more abstract and simple things. Have you ever heard of talismans and objects that have healing powers? I'm guessing you have. I think that cross can be taken as one of those objects. A lot of people feel more comfortable if they have a cross, so that they are sure that "God" is with them. In fact, none of the objects you've heard of have healing powers. You just believe they do, so they work, when in fact, you are doing all the work through your subconsciousness. Just to link something proven to it. Let's talk - placebo effect. People are given pills that do nothing and yet, they feel better. Why is that? I guess by now you know and I don't have to answer that question. It's just amazing what you can do with yourself. It's true you know - Imperare sibi maximum imperium est.
I'd like to bring another example of what pure belief can do. There is a Derren Brown episode in which he uses a womans belief against her. All those interested can find this clip on youtube, just type in Derren Brown voodoo and click search.
Now, what he did was, bring a woman to the forest. But this was no ordinary woman, she was extremely open to black magic and voodoo, and I think she stated that she thought of it as possible. So we have a woman that believes in voodoo magic. How can we use it...hmmm...right, let's make her think she's under a spell and see what happens. Derren brought a doll that looked like a voodoo doll. He then "took" the woman's ring and put it inside the doll. He told her that the doll now has a soul, her soul if she'd like. This I think is an indirect suggestion. The woman now clearly thinks that the doll is actually her. This is not correct, but remember - she believes in voodoo magic so...to her it's real. Derren then started to tie the doll's legs, and the woman said she couldn't move her legs. He continued with the hands and the mouth. In the end the woman couldn't move. You'll think of this as a fairy tale, but that's your choice. Anyway, while the woman was paralyzed, he told her a story of how our beliefs control us, but if we allow ourselves to question a belief, and think it possible that it's wrong, we would have a lot more liberty. Then the woman started questioning her beliefs and realized that she could move again. It's just amazing. I guess Derren did use some of his old tricks like misdirection and a bit of showmanship, but it doesn't matter.
If we get back to religion and take the Bible for an example. There are a lot of quotes that suggest the power of your subconsciousness, but they all make you think it's about God. But if you take them out of context...something like - "I tell you, really, if someones says : “Lift and throw yourself to the sea" to this hill, and doesn't question it in his heart, but believes that it will be so, it will happen." (Mark 11;23) and let's say - "So I tell you:whatever you ask through a prayer, believe that you already got it and it will be so" (Mark 11;24) It clearly talks of your subconsciousness.
Believe it or not, this ability can transfer to other people. For example if you want to be with someone and you believe that you will be with that person in time it will be so, but, again, only if you believe it will. Hmmm...I wouldn't call this telepathy. If you want something and you believe you'll get it, your body acts accordingly. So if you want to be with someone so bad, and you really believe that you will, then you're gonna be firing of suggestions, anchors, orders, pleas just to get what you want, although, some of it will be subconscious, so you won't be aware of it.
Do you have a friend that keeps saying things like - "Oh, no, I'll never get rid of this problem, I just can't solve it...and I don't even want to...". or - "I'm bored", "I'm sad", "I'm depressed", "I'll never get it"...slap them soon. Those people are destroying themselves just by saying it. Remember - if any suggestion, and I mean ANY, good or bad, reaches your subconsciousness it will just say - "Ok, I'll make it so." BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU SAY!!!.
Now here's an example of my auto-suggestion. Once I read the book and realized some things, I started putting it to use. I would lay in my bed, before going to sleep and dream. Imagine all sorts of stuff in the dark. I'm totally concentrated on the inside, on what's going on inside, therefore, my consciousness is not very active. I'm not looking at anything, listening anything, smelling anything or feeling... So I'm highly suggestible. This is when I cut my thoughts and say something like - "Tomorrow...I'm gonna be a happier person...I'm gonna be calmer...I'm gonna have the will to learn...< censored >" and so on. You can say anything you want, but when you do, you must believe that it will be yours. And also you must visualize it in your mind that it is so now. Imagine yourself laughing and learning...Make it rich in color and sound. Live it!
When I did this...now this is something interesting...after I did this, the next day, I was like...GREAT. Ok, many of the things I said didn't come true, but it's a process, and I believe that it works, however, one thing did work immediately. I was so damn happy...and I had no reason to be. I just was. That day and the day after that (next night I repeated the process) my family like...gave me strange looks like - "What's wrong with you..." I would just laugh and make jokes...I enjoyed life more. It's so great. Try it. You'll see.

I get the feeling I left something out...if I did, I'll add it later...

Our mind is basically divided into two main parts (actually in NLP there's four parts, but I want to keep this simple). That would be conscious and subconscious mind (the other two would be critical factor and unconscious mind. Though, critical factor is more of a threshold between conscious and subconscious mind). Our conscious mind processes what we want it to. Whenever you see something (for example, let's just take this text you're reading), your conscious mind acknowledges it and interprets it so that it would be understandable to you. It tells you what color are the letters, what is the meaning of a word, connects the words into a sentence and then summarizes it and gives you a picture of what you are seeing. I think the conscious mind is boring XD. So lets move on to something more interesting - your subconscious mind. Your subconscious mind processes everything. Oh, I really do mean EVERYTHING. If we were to take this text, for example, unlike you conscious mind, that would only be reading these letters, your subconscious mind sees this whole page. It sees the calendar on the right, it sees what I wrote about my songs, it also sees the address bar of your browser and all those buttons you have near. It also sees outside your monitor. Whatever you may have within your visual range your subconscious mind sees it and believe it or not...it remembers it. So basically, if I wanted to study for an exam for which I have to learn say...two pages (wishful thinking), all I would have to do is take a glimpse look at those pages, I don't even have to read the words, and my subconscious mind memorizes it. Now, I know what you're thinking. If that were so, then none of us would ever have to spend a lot of time learning. But that's where the tricky part comes into play. If I were to put away the pages that I just looked at and then tried to recall them, of course, I wouldn't be able to. Now, that's because it's pretty hard to access our subconsciousness. If I were to read those pages for two hours straight than that would be another story. I think that's the way photographic memory works. People with that kind of memory have the ability to easily access their subconscious mind. This is where hypnosis comes into play. If say, after a had a look at those two pages, I were to be hypnotizes by someone who knows how to do it and if he (or she) guided me well enough to those pages, I'm pretty sure I would be able to read them from within my mind. Hmm...that's strange...I'm not sure if this is true, and even though everything I read about this says that it could be done...no experiments were made, or none that I could find. Anyway, more of the powers of hypnosis later.
This also works with an auditive sense. And now that we're here let's talk suggestions. Everything you are and everything you know and believe is stored in your subconsciousness. It all got there while you were little, back then you were very suggestible. When your parents told you - "No, you can't throw rocks at cars!" you immediately accepted it. If not, it was beaten into you (I guess that's one way to bypass the critical factor - more later). Anyway, it became a part of who you are and to this day, you still know you're not supposed to throw rocks at cars. As you grew older, you became more resilient to suggestions and you started questioning them. If you weren't told not to throw rocks at cars when you were young but when you got older then you'd say - "Why shouldn't I? I've been throwing rocks at cars for so long and why should I stop now." That's because it became a part of you. It became your routine (routines are stored in your subconsciousness as well). You reject this idea because you think about it and then you dismiss it because you know that to you it's wrong. So your conscious mind thought about it, rejected it and the suggestion did not pass that critical factor mentioned earlier and did not enter your subconsciousness and therefore did not become a part of who you are. Now, if you're reading this, I guess you're old enough to be questioning everything. Little can be done about your routines and beliefs (unless you use proper procedures).
Let's talk patter interrupt! Yes, I just remembered it. So like I said, inside your mind there are routines that you do everyday. One of such routines, for example, is the one that we all have and that's exactly why it's most commonly used in pattern interrupts. It's a handshake. When someone stretches their hand toward you as if they're going for a handshake you automatically move you're hand to do the same. This is a routine or a pattern. It means that we do it without thinking. If such a pattern is interrupted, that means that somewhere within the act of this pattern you break it or change it, the subconscious mind becomes confused because of the change. You're conscious mind goes like - "What the...this is not in the manual...!!!" And in that moment you are quite open for suggestions. This backs up the fact that you are very suggestible when you are young...because you don't know how to do anything, it's not in the manual...back then your very life was a BIG pattern interrupt, hehe. So, anyway...once you interrupt a pattern, like the one described up there, you are able to say almost anything to that person you interrupted and they will automatically accept it because the suggestion goes around the critical factor, that was weakened by the interrupt and goes straight into your subconsciousness. This can also be used for inducting trance when you want to hypnotize someone but more about that when it's hypnosis's turn.
The method described above is just an easier way of making a suggestion acceptable to someone. I'm sure you've all had pattern interrupts in your life, but no one really used them to this purpose. I had one of my patterns interrupted recently...and that's the first time I actually knew what happened, because I read about it. But there are other ways of suggesting. One of them is persistence. If you repeat something over, and over, and over to someone or to yourself, your body will begin acting according to that suggestion. That's called autosuggestion, which I discovered quite recently and I didn't waste any time, I got right on it! I'll talk more of autosuggestion later if you want me to.
Oh, God...I could go on, and on about this...I'm not even sure what I wrote up there...but there are a lot of words so...I guess I said enough.

Did the wind blow hard up there?
Did the sun force you to close your pretty eyes?
Was there no one there to stop you?
Was there no one there to hear your lonely cries?

Was it that life was hard?
Was it that every day you ran onto a bump?
I bet you never gave it another thought
Before you chose to end it with a jump

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But I know how much it hurts
I know that pain inside your chest
And I know what you thought
It's death in life that is the best

Chorus1
Their cruelty left you breathless
That's what happens to us without luck
It leads to death
In whatever form
That's what happens when you get lifestruck

Did the wind blow soft up there?
Did you fully feel that cold gentle breeze?
I know you couldn't fight them off
I know it's them that brought you to your knees

It's with great remorse and rage
That I will clench my fists and say
That it's all that you could do
And for us there's no other way

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Were they blind to all you did?
Were they deaf to all you said?
It's their fault that you're no more
It's their fault that you are dead

Chorus2
They forced this world upon us
They bathe in regret and they get stuck
Serves them right
Cause they don't care
It's us that always get lifestruck

They keep asking why
Yet no one thought of asking you and me
So we say goodbye
With hope that maybe then they all will see

I despise their every tear
Because they didn't even try to care
And now it's up to us
Now it's a burden we are forced to bear

Chorus3
They forced their ugly word upon us
With no direction we got stuck
Now they scratch their heads and wonder
Why is it that we get lifestruck

People that know me know that I'm into psychology. But everyone, except a certain individual, has welcomed the idea of NLP with extreme skepticism. However, the fact that they are narrow minded did not stop me from exploring this area of psychology. My attentions at this moment are focused on this and I will try to explain it to you the best way I can.
NLP or Neurolinguistic programming is a tool that can be used in everyday life in almost all actions done only by yourself or in interaction with someone else. But it's very complicated and will not work if done inaccurately. NLP consists of rapport, hypnosis and subliminal suggestions. Now, I'm gonna star with rapport, giving that it's simple and it sometimes happens without us knowing.

Rapport is a state in which you are in tune with another person. You could say that you and that person are "on the same wave length". That means that you understand each other, or at least that is what all of you know it means. What you don't know is that this state can be created artificially. This can be accomplished by mirroring. It means that you mirror someone's movements in such a way that that person would almost assume that they are looking in a mirror. I say 'almost' because if a person realizes that you are mirroring him or her it will destroy the rapport and that person could become agitated. Once you've managed to establish a rapport, that person should follow your moves. I, myself, once managed to establish rapport with my brother. We were out in a bar and we were talking. I subtly mirrored him. I guess it's my luck that that day he was holding his cigar in his left hand so I could hold it in my right. Which is actually weird, because he always uses his right hand. Anyway, after a few minutes of mirroring I managed to get him to shake off the ashes from his cigar about five times in a row without him ever taking a smoke (there was no ashes to shake off). Needless to say that he was actually following my lead and that I too have shaken off the ashes about five times. When I stopped shaking he stopped too. This only works on subconscious actions like scratching yourself or blinking, you know...stuff that you would have done anyway without thinking about it. Now, another thing in mirroring is pacing. That means that you should speak as fast as the person you are speaking to. I didn't have to do this, because ma brother and all of my friends speak at the same pace (that's probably because we're in rapport most of the time). The best way of knowing you've established rapport is...when you're talking to someone and you're like all into it and you know what that person is gonna say before he even says it and vice reversa. It is said that people in strong rapport also blink and breathe at the same time. Although blinking is something you cannot simulate, mirroring breathing is doable, but a lot harder than mirroring body movements.

Hypnosis is something you've all heard of, but I'm guessing it was presented to you in a wrong way. I've seen the movies in which the guy says something like "You are very very sleepy" or "Look deep into my eyes". Basically, that is a part of hypnosis, but you were probably thinking that it's magic and that it's only done in the movies. I thought that too. I was wrong. So were you.......hey, that rhymes. Anyway, hypnosis is something you can do. Now you're thinking "Yeah, maybe if I trained it for a year", but that's also wrong. Achieving hypnosis is...I would say even more easier than establishing rapport. However, I will not go into how it's done now, maybe later if you want to, because it's a long process that has many variations which you can change. For now, I'll just say that it's an altered state of consciousness. In hypnosis, you are not sleeping, you are fully wake and in control. Hypnotis cannot make you do anything you don't want to.

Subliminal suggestions are my favorite part of NLP and that's what I'll practice. When you talk to someone their brain listens on different levels. Conscious mind is listening to the context of your sentences and then searches for similar experiences within the person so that it could feel closer to you and so that it could share his or her own experiences with you about the matter that you are talking about. But the subconscious mind...now, that's a tricky one. It listens to everything. It listens to things that you don't even know you're saying. I'll just give you an example and then you'll figure it out. This is an example I watched on youtube. Now, if I told you a sentence like - "The other day I was walking down the street when I saw a car with a scratch on it and for a moment there I thought it was your car but soon I realized it wasn't so I just head on home." After I've told you this you'd probably be thinking about where you were yesterday and where was your car (if you even have a car...or a drivers license). What the subconscious mind would hear, if you'd slightly modify it by stressing out certain words like - "The other day I was walking down the street when I saw a car with a SCRATCH on it and for a moment there I thought it was YOUR car but soon I realized it wasn't so I just HEAD on home." I think you could probably guess what would happen if you would say this sentence to someone and stressed the bolded words, but not too much. If you stress it too much it wont work. Everything in NLP has to be subtle. This has many applications. Sometimes we give away subliminal messages without even realizing it. We are firing of anchors (that's another story, I'll tell you later...if you want), affecting people in so many ways... It's just amazing to me.

I'll give more on this subject later, but only if you'll read it...this is enough for now...

Have you forgotten love?
Have you forgotten the only thing worth dying for?
Have I not made it clear?
Have I not showed you there’s no one I love more?

For I am losing strength
And all they do is drag me down
I’ve lost the will to try
Please pull me out before I drown

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Love is all I feel right now
A gun shaped letter
To hell with their real world
I like mine better

Chorus
Love is not a word
Love was made for you and me alone
There is no denying it
Love is like a plague
For which the cure is not yet known
There is no defying it

How is it that you’re blind?
How is it that for you I’m forced to bleed?
Am I not good enough for you?
Am I the one that you will always need?


Do you believe me?
I’ve seen people fly
We could do it too
But you won’t even try

Bridge2
Love is all I feel right now
Now and forever
To hell with their real world
I like mine better

Chorus
Love is not a word
Love was made for you and me alone
There is no denying it
Love is just a reason
An excuse for me to call you my own
There is no defying it

There was a time when it was just you and me
A time when we didn't allow anybody else to see
The secrets we had were unique and so sweet
Our two little hearts together rejoiced in beat

With a swift wind our dreams have collapsed
It was hard to believe that our time had passed
Now all that's left is pain entwined with fear
Not a day goes by without us shedding a tear

Bridge
No greater pain is felt
But the one when I wake at dawn
Realizing you're not here
Realizing that now you’re gone

Chorus1
Below this shattered shell of mine
The strength I am not worthy of
And though it serves no purpose now
It keeps me warm my burning love

Remember the times when the world was ours
When we used to stare at the night sky for hours
Searching for a place that we could call home
In the silence of space our open minds would roam

Now I roam alone in the dark throughout this life
Inside me love and death lead an endless strife
And as every single day slowly passes me by
The more I realize that never again will I fly

Bridge
Chorus1
Below this shattered shell of mine
The strength I am not worthy of
Sweeter than the sweetest wine
It keeps me warm my burning love


As my life slowly in vain slips by
I know that now it’s time to die
I’d say goodbye if I didn’t feel fear
That there’ll be no one there to hear

As heartache settles down
I wipe away my tears
As the sun starts to shine
I push aside my fears

And I get up from my bed
My mind filled with the thoughts of you again
And as I splash my face with water
I remember the joy I used to feel back then

This world banned our love
And we were forced to comply
There is no strength left
No strength left in us to defy

Chorus
With nothing else left to do
We embrace solitude inside the darkness of our room
This is where we wait and cry
This is where with dire pain we wait for our inevitable doom

So many times I've said to myself
That nothing in this world can pull me down
But love is not of this world
Love is the only thing that makes me frown

Noone can help me but you
And you are so far away from here
This I see to be a sign
This is why I'll end my life, my dear

Chorus2
With nothing else left to do
I grab a gun and lock myself in my room
This is where I wait and cry
This is where I chose to force my doom

Inače ne pišem ovakve pjesme...but this had to be done...

Squeezing out that final drop
I finally satisfy my endless thirst
As liquor races through our veins
I wait to see who collapses first

Clutching the iron fence hard
You force it all out, so tough
I know exactly how it feels
I really know I shouldn’t laugh

Up on a mountain or down below
And wherever else I chose to go
You will always be around
That’s my man, that’s my bro

And when life starts to pull me down
And when my problems start to stack
I don’t feel scared because I know
That we both guard each other’s back

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I nevjerojatno simboličan filmić... (LOL)

I see you there
Standing in my room
Present in my life
Not knowing why you're here

You know I love you
I said it many times before, my dear
And that's exactly why
I don't even want you here

Chorus 1
Going hand in hand with love
Pain is never held at bay
So even though I love you
I need you, love, to go away

You're still here
Stomping on my heart
Feeding on my agony
Not knowing that you're doing so

You know I love you
I hate you even more, my dear
And that's exactly why
I don't even want you near

Chorus 2
Going hand in hand with love
Pain is always there to stay
I cannot take much more, my love
Please, I beg you, leave today

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Shadow of the Day Lyrics

Desperately calling out for help
You gently gaze into my eyes
I see you fake it all to well
As though inside you something dies

You've been doing this for far too long
Back then I bought the things you said
But now I know just who you are
With my belief your ego was fed

Bridge
No longer will you use me like this
For you pain was always bliss

Chorus
I know you like it
And I don't mind
Enjoy your pain
Leave me behind

I put myself to question and
I can't believe I fell for it
Forced to say I was tricked by you
The hardest thing I had to admit

Bridge
Chorus

Recently I saw this episode of Tree hill when this guy brought a gun to school. None of it made much impact on me except one thing that a woman who was reporting for the news said. She said - "We are a country obsessed with tragedy." It did not strike me as odd that America was obsessed with tragedy but it's not just America. The whole world has become obsessed with tragedy. So I decided to give it some thought. Why is this happening? Have we become so familiar with pain that we thrive on it? I always said that pain is a too large amount of pleasure and that sometimes pain can be pleasing if our pain threshold is great, but have we pushed the line so far that we no longer feel pain as it should be, as hurting, as bad. Today, I often come across people whose life is a mess. They are hurting. I'm sure you have too, and tell me - have you tried to offer help to those people? The most common answer to that is - I can't be helped, which is of course BS. There is no hurt that can't be cured if you set your mind to curing it. However, these people really can't be helped, because they don't want any help. Find sense in that! Find sense in someone's decision not to help themselves! The only reasonable thing I can pull out of that is that they don't want help because the state that they are in has become a permanent resident in their mind and now, it doesn't really hurt. It's just there, and we all know that we'd rather have something inside of us, even if it's pain, than nothing at all. Now how did it come to this? How did it happen that we must find comfort in devastating feelings? Maybe other feelings just aren't strong enough, maybe they just aren't doing it for us, aren't good enough. Or maybe it's because good feelings are hard to find, so we turn to whatever's left, because that's all we have and because we need little effort to get it. People have just stopped trying to be happy.
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I won't fall with the rest of you. I won't surrender to grief, sorrow and pain. Why? I could so easily enjoy pain, I've had my share of it by now. I probably could find a way to savor it. So why won't I? BECAUSE IT'S JUST WRONG! Not the way it's supposed to be. It's a thing of moral, I guess. Those people, and a lot of other, "happy", people often say - That's just who I am and I can't change it...
Can't or won't? Why don't you strive to being better, to improving yourself. You'll never hear me say that I can't change. The only thing I can change and improve in this world is myself. Imperare sibi maximum imperium est!

Here's something for you to think about until I'm back. A work in progress.

Lina - Mind if I die?

Here we go again
Let me think for a second
How can I help you unload

Here you go again
Telling me I am no good
Forcing me to walk that road

Is there something I do right?

Chorus
May I do that?
May I make you cry?
Mind if I try this?
Do you mind if I die?
Mind if I die?

Here I go again
A sudden sense of deja vu
Like a splinter in my eye

Here they go again
Breaking into my only world
Leaving me with but a sigh

Chorus


Lina - untitled

She put a gun against my head
The day she said "I love you"
And the gun went of that day
The moment she said we're through

Now I can't remember what it's like
To have my head split in two
But I remember what I said
It was "Fuck you, bitch, I hate you too"

No two stars can shine as bright
As those that hurt inside your eyes
Nothing tells me better how you feel
Than the grief inside your endless cries

Savor the sorrow and ignore the joy
Because you know that noone cares
Falling from those brightest two stars
As ever warm, your solar flares

I closed my arms around your fragile body
And burnt my lips as I kissed your tears away
I'd die if it would force your lips to stretch
To see you smile any price I will gladly pay